Thursday, August 25, 2011

Hope!

Do you ever have one of those days where you realize or accomplish something that seemed afar off? I think today was one of those days. In the beginning of this process, the whole thought of this was long and drawn out, but now we only have 3 more rounds to go. This still seems like a lot, but knowing that the treatments get easier on Jackson make me feel a little better. As it has been before, Jackson is in for 14-32 days depending on how he responds to the chemo which started today at 6pm. What I realized today, was that in the beginning of the knowledge of Jackson and his complications, I had so little understanding of Hope, Love, Faith, and Trust. Now that we have been enjoying the laughter and love of this wonderful child, I have come to see how easy it is to get down in life's struggles and yet those darkest days in my life are still better than Jackson's.  He has been an encouragement to me, and my Family. My God has opened my heart and eyes more than I ever thought would happen and I see more joy in life than ever before.

2 comments:

  1. "Those who have never rebelled against God or shaken their fist against him, have never encountered God at all."

    I have often stood before Him and asked, "WHY?" as if I expected an audible answer. No craved it! Yesterday was an endlessly frustrating day with insurance reps, yet when I got in the car, Christy Galkin's song automatically started from my MP3 player. I started crying......God knew me.....knew what and when I needed Him.....knew how much I could endure.....knew how to help.....

    "Does Jesus care when my heart is pained
    Too deeply for mirth or song,
    As the burdens press, and the cares distress
    And the way grows weary and long?

    Refrain
    Oh yes, He cares, I know He cares,
    His heart is touched with my grief;
    When the days are weary, the long nights dreary,
    I know my Savior cares.
    Does Jesus care when my way is dark
    With a nameless dread and fear?
    As the daylight fades into deep night shades,
    Does He care enough to be near?

    Refrain
    Oh yes, He cares, I know He cares,
    His heart is touched with my grief;
    When the days are weary, the long nights dreary,
    I know my Savior cares.
    Does Jesus care when I've tried and failed
    To resist some temptation strong;
    When for my deep grief there is no relief,
    Though my tears flow all the night long?

    Refrain
    Oh yes, He cares, I know He cares,
    His heart is touched with my grief;
    When the days are weary, the long nights dreary,
    I know my Savior cares.
    Does Jesus care when I've said "goodbye"
    To the dearest on earth to me,
    And my sad heart aches till it nearly breaks,
    Is it aught to Him? Does He see?

    Refrain
    Oh yes, He cares, I know He cares,
    His heart is touched with my grief;
    When the days are weary, the long nights dreary,
    I know my Savior cares.

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  2. The life God gave us, is it not the most amazing grace of all?

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